She Hid Her Bulimia for Years, Then God Met Her There with Jayme Muller
"I didn't want to picture my life with it anymore. I wanted to see a future where I didn't have it."
Jayme Muller is here, and she is so generously sharing her own story of bulimia recovery with us today. She is a Christian blogger, author, and podcast host who spreads hope through her own journey of recovery from an eating disorder and a restored relationship with God. Jayme hosts the podcast Recover with God, and her vulnerability in this conversation is the kind that makes you feel less alone.
We talk a lot on the Old School Food Freedom Podcast about recovery and faith, but what Jayme shares here is special. Her story of hitting rock bottom, surrendering control to God, and taking bulimia recovery one day at a time until freedom became real. Not perfect, or shame-free every day... but real.
Jayme is sharing what it looked like to finally stop hiding her eating disorder from God and start letting Him into the hardest parts. You'll hear how perfectionism and all-or-nothing thinking kept her stuck for years, why she thought she had to fix herself before coming back to God, and what it felt like the day she finally stopped binging and purging for good.
Here’s what we cover:
How Jayme's eating disorder began with dieting in high school
The role of perfectionism and earning worth played in her struggle
What it looked like to hide her bulimia through marriage, divorce, and a toxic relationship
Why she thought she had to fix herself before coming back to God
The surrender prayer that changed everything
How grace, the real, experienced grace, became the foundation of her recovery
Breaking all-or-nothing thinking and learning to count progress in small steps
The skydiving moment that became a symbol of what freedom felt like
Why the Christian community and discipleship were part of her healing
Building resilience and practical tools for taking your thoughts captive and choosing God's truth over the enemy's lies
Why sharing your story and seeking support breaks shame and brings healing to you and others
Friend, if you are in the middle of an eating disorder and you feel like God couldn't possibly desire to meet you there right now, Jayme's story is living proof that He does. You don't have to have it together first, or stop binging and purging before you pray. You just have to bring Him into the mess.
"You don't have to fix yourself before you go to God. You go to God in your biggest complete mess, and you say, here I am." — Jayme Muller
Recovery from an eating disorder isn't a straight line, and Jayme doesn't pretend it was for her. But what she found on the other side, identity, freedom, purpose, and a husband she met after learning to surrender, is the kind of story that reminds us that God’s plan is so much better than staying stuck. You can take the next small step today. Even just one day without binging and purging counts. It all counts.
No matter where you are on your journey, you are not alone, and there is hope. Freedom means not being defined by your struggles, but by God’s truth that you are loved and worthy. What’s one step you can take today toward grace, support, or surrender in your own story?
Be sure to check out Jayme's podcast, Recover with God, and her blog, Adventure and the Girl. And hey, if this episode resonated with you, would you share it with a friend who needs to hear that recovery is possible?
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More About Jayme Muller
Jayme is a Christian blogger, author, and podcast host who spreads hope and encouragement through her story of recovery from an eating disorder and a restored relationship with God. Jayme's favorite word is zeal, a passionate pursuit of purpose. This purpose is reflected in her blog, "Adventure and the Girl," her self-published books on Amazon, and her podcast, "Recover with God."
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Mentioned Scriptures
Romans 12
Related Episodes
FINDINGbalance: Overcoming Shame & Diet Culture in Christian Community with Chrissy Kirkman
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CHRIST-CENTERED RESOURCES TO HELP YOU FIND FREEDOM
The Daily Vitamin eDevo: A free devotional with bite-sized truth emailed 5 days a week
Community Groups: Find connection with prayer groups and our Hello, Freedom! community.
Christian Treatment Finder: Connecting you with Christian providers experienced in treating eating issues.
Lasting Freedom Online Course: A Christ-centered, non-diet course to work through false beliefs about food and weight so you can live free from disordered eating and body image issues.
CREDITS
Interlude music by “Hotham” – Morning Thoughts
Intro music by “MokkaMusic” – Old Jeans (Funk)
Wrap-up music by Jesse Quinn – Christian Instrumental
Production & Editing by Leah Bryant Co
The content in this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, or prescribe a particular course of action. If you have, or suspect you may have, an eating disorder, please consult your healthcare provider. If you desire to receive faith-based care, visit ChristianTreatmentFinder.com to browse professionals with a Kingdom campaign against eating disorders.
