Hold Me Fast
I agreed to cooperate with this treatment plan and allow Jesus to come into my heart just a little bit. While I was there, I met a girl my age who was fighting leukemia. She had to use a feeding tube just like mine, yet there was a major difference between her thoughts and mine regarding the tube. She welcomed it with immense joy as she knew her body needed the extra calories to fight her cancer. I, on the other hand, resented and despised my tube with all my being seeing it only as a way for my medical team to “make me fat.” But Jesus began to change my heart and mind…
A Beautiful Spirit
Barbara’s appearance by the world’s standards would have been labeled as “too large,” “needs to lose weight,” or maybe “obese;” and yet to me, Barbara’s size simply seemed irrelevant. The gentle confidence and kindness in which she carried herself stood out far more to me than her size.
My Secret Struggle
No one would ever know my secret. And to be honest with you, I really felt like this was all normal because it's really all I ever knew. I felt very safe in my own cage, but I really wasn’t free at all.
Cleaning out the Lies
To embrace the beauty God has for me in our moves, I am learning I need to take care of the body I was given. It takes time, sometimes years to uncover and replace lies that we have believed for so long. But let us not give up!
Lessons From the Grey
I was very much a “doer.” Tell me what to do to help my daughter and I will do it, give me a checklist please! There is no checklist for this! I have had to learn more how to “be.” Ugh, I could thrive as a human “doing” yet that is not what my daughter needed.
FREEdom Story: "Freedom from Shame"
Guest blogger Marissa shares her FREEdom story, of the transformation she's found moving from shame to victory over her body image challenges, with Jesus alongside her. Are YOU ready to step out of the shame and into the freedom of full recovery?