Did God Give Me an ED to Draw Me Closer to Him?

January 28, 2012

“I have an eating disorder – a pretty bad one, actually. It has totally disrupted my life for several years now, and it’s hard for me to imagine I’ll ever be free. My friend, who knows about this struggle, seems to think that God is teaching me something through this process. She seems to believe that my disorder is in some way actually bringing me closer to God, because since I’m such a mess, I’m hyper-aware that he is God and I am not. But I wrestle with this idea, because it seems strange that the God who created me would cause me to struggle with something just to get close to me. I mean, can’t he find other ways to draw me to himself? Do you really think he’d be so cruel as to give me an eating disorder to do that? I’m just really confused.”