Bulimia nervosa is characterized by recurring periods of binge eating, during which large amounts of food are consumed in a short period of time -- sometimes as many as 20,000 calories during the course of a single binge. The bulimic is aware that his or her eating is out of control. He or she is fearful of not being able to stop eating, and is afraid of being fat. The bulimic usually feels depressed and guilty after a binge. Frequently, the binges are followed by purging, through self-induced vomiting, abuse of laxatives and/or diuretics, or periods of fasting. The bulimic's weight is usually in a normal or somewhat above normal range; it may fluctuate more than 10 pounds due to alternating binges and fasts.
Source: ANAD (National Association of Anorexia and Associated Disorders) www.anad.org
During the current episode of Bulimia Nervosa, the person has regularly engaged in self-induced vomiting or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas.
During the current episode of Bulimia Nervosa, the person has used other inappropriate compensatory behaviors, such as fasting or excessive exercise, but has not regularly engaged in self-induced vomiting or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas.
Source: Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders DSM-IV, American Psychiatric Association
As with anorexia, there are many health problems caused by bulimia, including tearing of the esophagus, electrolyte imbalance, severe tooth decay, eye blood vessel hemorrhages, kidney damage, liver damage and a weakened immune system. And this does not take into account the psychological problems caused by bulimia (or any type of disordered eating) including loss of confidence, loss of self-esteem, depression, guilt and shame.
Unlike the slow, silent process of anorexia, bulimia is a violent cycle - the 'high' one experiences during bingeing, followed by the 'low' of fear, followed by a 'rush' of purging, followed by more guilt, shame and fear. The important thing is to start breaking that cycle. For help in doing that, we highly recommend you talk with someone who is experienced in working with eating disorders.
Even though it may seem impossible to break the cycle you're trapped in, please know that others have done it successfully, and you can too. It will take hard work, determination, and faith, but you can do it. And the benefits of being free will exceed even the highest 'high' you may have felt before.